pathetic

yes.  that's what i think i am. right about now. and most probably up until i finally lose a respectable number of pounds in a respectable amount of time.

and to think i was in a self-congratulatory mood as i updated my stats to the right,  yes, i lost an additional 3 lbs, the weighing scale said.  but when i was looking over this blog, some facts dawned on me.

1. that i started this blog a year and a month 2 months ago, July 6, 2009; and
2. that i pegged my starting weight from about the time i gave birth to maxie; and
3. that i've written 40 crappy posts about this pitiful journey to fabu-loss-city or should i say Loser-ville with the capital L across my forehead; and [yes, i ain't done yet]
4. that if i computed the average, i just about lost a whopping 1 POUND PER MONTH. SHEESH!

what's worse is i think i'm the last to see how pathetic i've been.

needless to say, i am beet red with shame right now.  and for the record, i just want to declare that i'm not just pathetic, but that i am a fake.  a pathetic fake.  if someone will call me anything worse than that, i'm it.  i admit it.  what a loser! or should i say gainer!!! blecchh!

so i'm gonna get off my sorry a$$ now, and start doing something respectable so i can write something worth posting the next time.

note to future-self:  for the record, this post has nothing to do with my seeing pictures of my skinny self way back when i was not a fake. =P